Interpretations of the Dream

(Also got some feedback from Ti, Sean and Mary on Facebook.)

from dreammoods.com:

Floating

To dream that you are floating on air, indicates your contentment and acceptance of some situation. You are letting go of your problems or worries and just going with the flow. As a result, you are experiencing new-found freedom. You will rise above your obstacles that may presently seem overwhelming. Alternatively, it suggests that you wandering through life aimlessly with no goals.

To dream that you are floating in water, suggests that you have a handle on your emotions.

To dream that you are floating, but are afraid to move, suggests that you are questioning your own abilities. You are experiencing doubts in yourself.

Scream

To dream that you are screaming, symbolizes anger and fear. It is an expression of your powerful emotions which you have kept pent up inside. If you try to scream, but no sound comes out, then it indicates your sense of helplessness and frustrations in some situation. No matter how hard you try to get someone's attention, they cannot hear you. It highlights your difficulty in communicating with this person. You need to immediately identify your fears or feelings and confront this situation in real life.

To hear or dream that someone is screaming, indicates that some friend or family member is in need of your help.

Dream

I had a dream last night that has stayed with me all day.

In the dream I was sleeping and began rising up as I slept, floating facing up about 3 or 4 feet. I was terrified, and tried to scream, but had no voice. I kept trying to scream, but could not make a sound, and in the dream I could feel my voice laboring to try to make a sound. In the dream, Patrick awoke and tried to grab me to pull me down, but could not get a grip on me. I kept floating up, and trying to scream, but made no sound. Then I woke up.

This dream was almost a half-dream because it seemed like I was partially awake during it, though I knew it was a dream once I woke up. It was disturbing, and I found it difficult to go back to sleep afterwards. It think it was around 3am-5am in the morning, sometime around there, but probably lasted for only a few minutes I am guessing.

I think sometimes dreams are there to tell us things, but we have limited tools to decipher them with.

The glorious end to Summer

Summer is coming to an end and I hate to see it go. It means more than a change in the weather this time around. It means how far have I gotten in my job search, have I persuaded my mom to move to a better home environment, have I got all the things done around the house/yard that I intended to, and just what is important, anyway?!

This year our youngest (Sarah) graduated from HS and is now working PT at a preschool and loves it. Our oldest, Daniel, is going back to school for another round of studying film/video. He has great talents for writing, and needs to get a job.

I have been unemployed for over 9 months and trying to find the "Zen" in all of this. Trying to enjoy the time I have, while using the time I have to it's best potential. This makes for quite a bit of wasted time. But wasted is relative, right?

I need to get healthier. I have been enduring lots of aches and pains, and probably drinking too much wine as a reaction to that. I have achey joints, a chronic ache in my back , and occasional sore knees. But, over time, I have found that yoga really helps to ease those ailments. I am also a big fan of walking a couple miles per day.

Well, the other night we watched the director's cut of the Woodstock Movie, and even tho' I was only 11 in 1969, it took me back, and reminded me of how good it is to acknowledge the sychronicity of life when it happens. We spend so much time multi-tasking and "not" taking vacation, that we miss out completely on what is really happening around us. As Neil Young so eloquently said, "To give a love, you've gotta live a love; to live a love, you've gotta be part of." To be part of you've gotta be present and in the moment. That is what this time has allowed me to barely grasp after so long. After so many years of working, raising kids, worrying, and scrambling around trying to keep up. I need to be in that moment. The rest is nothing important.

August Already!

How did it get to be August already!? Well, here it is. Been harvesting small amounts of things from out little garden. Our cat, Mia, loves spending these sunny days lounging around in the garden. I finally made some zucchini bread, and will undoubtedly make more. Actually, the zucchini has been pretty well under control, and tho' we still have several in the fridge, I do believe we will use them!

Work goes slow on my Web page. I am using a Dreamweaver tutorial on the Adobe site that is very good, a step by step lesson to set up a site. Even tho' I learned this several months ago in the class I took, it's nice to have a refresher, and some hand-holding along the way.

Job hunting goes on, and I am starting to apply networking to my daily job search strategy. Trying to think of everyone I know even remotely connected to the business to get the word out that I am looking and I have experience. I am hoping as summer ends the jobs will start to appear again.

Perspective

OK, I am back in the blogging world. I have been busy applying for jobs, which has become a tedious, uninspiring circle of disappointment, I must say. But I persist, sometimes seeing some job posts that actually excite me. Hope is still in the air, but with the economic picture lately, it is still pretty damn grim.

I recently found a website, listed on the front page of the Seattle Times this morning, called lordsandladiesofleisure.wordpress.com and it is pretty interesting and amusing. It is, of course, all about being unemployed, and has had alot of hits all around the country.

The garden is looking great. The tomato plants are so big I have to tie them up! Have about a dozen green tomatoes. Already have harvested some nice, tasty, "small" zucchini. Will have to keep an eye on them. Looks like we will have about 20 buttercup squash. Anyone out there want some squash in a couple of weeks?!

Been looking for a place for mom, and she is still hesitant to really consider moving, but at least she is thinking about it a little. We'll talk more about it today, and see if we can go look at some places again next week. She just really needs some community, and she has way too much to take care of now, and I can't help her out as much as she would like me to.

I will blog later about new things I learned at the IDUG meeting about interactive documents, about the garden (my garden diary) and other "very important" things.

Oh the Joy

The satisfaction of gardening again has been really evident for me lately... out there in the morning, birds chirping, weeding, watering, feeling amazed that what I planted is thriving. I know the therapuatic side of garden care is equal to the satisfaction of watching the plants grow and reeping the harvest.

We have had a couple of "garden" salads now, and it's great. Saving a little money, but most of all enjoying the taste of freshly picked green lettuce. We have Grand Rapids, Prize Head, Garnet Oakleaf, and I recently added some starts of bib lettuce, and one called Valentine, which is kind of a small, reddish lettuce. Also arugula. Yummy!

Bread and Gardening

My focus lately has been on baking and gardening. This blog will serve sometimes as a diary of those endeavors.

The latest bread baking was last Monday. This was the most successful bread baking yet because the bread rose well, and was big enough to be considered "sandwich bread".

It has a very good texture, and tastes subtly sweet. We still have some on the shelf, and it makes good toast, too.

The Swiss chard in the garden is looking really good. It is "Bright Lights", a multi-colored chard, that was started from seed in indoor pots on April 2nd.

I planted 3 type of lettuce from seed, also on April 2nd, and the most impressive of the 3 has been the Prizehead lettuce. It has big red and green leaves, and looks full and healthy. I have already been picking some leaves off some of the heads for salad. It has a mild, and appealing taste as well.

The zucchini is doing well, I have 3 plants and they are still small, but are already budding. So I will have to watch them carefully to make sure the zucchini doesn't get too big.

The other squashes I have planted are butternut and buttercup. The buttercup was ready to transplant first and is doing well. It is bigger than the butternut.