Bothered

Well, it's been a while since I have added a post. I think I have been feeling unable to write anything because I am upset and grumpy. I just feel bothered by a lot of stuff lately.

I suspect many people are feeling this way now. The news is bad, and there are so few jobs. I actually have felt jealous of people who have jobs. I find myself longing to be at work, at a computer, producing, contributing, typing, filing, layout out a project, calling a printer on the phone for a quote. I miss work. And I feel bad that I am not contributing.

Ah, well. It could be worse. We are OK, really. It's the fear of what could happen that is causing this anxiety, and the loss of the continuum that was work, that was going somewhere everyday, that was a sense of being needed. Needed to do a job.

So I will network, and get creative, and see what I can find in other ways. Freelancing has it's benefits, and can be lucrative if you work hard enough.

Still seeking balance; still needing to find my way a bit.