Goodnight Dad

Dad passed away today. He was in ICU after having suffered septic shock, which means he had an infection in his blood. His organs began shutting down, and he was on life support and a ventilator to breathe.

It was hard to see him. He was on pain medication so he did not feel any pain. He did not look like himself. In the room the sound of the ventilator kept going at a steady pace, making it seem almost peaceful.

But it wasn't. It was sad, and somewhat lonely to be there, even though we were all there as a family surrounding him. After a while the kids went home. Patrick stayed by mom and I.

This has not really sunk in yet. I am glad dad went peacefully, and that I had a chance to kiss him goodbye. I wish I could have talked to him one last time.

Living 91 years is a pretty amazing thing. He had a good life, full of adventures, some of which I'm sure I never heard about. He struggled in his life in different ways, but he worked very hard to be a good father to me. And he was. I always knew that he loved me no matter what. As a parent now, I know that is the best gift you can give your child.

Goodnight Dad. I will always love you.